today is a hard day in my life.....it wud have bein 2 years.......2 whole years!!!!! because of me its nuthin now!!!! let me start from the beginning........i was with this fella for 19 months...we broke up in march..... because of me...i messed up everythin,...we broke up cuz lee ( that was his name) said he didnt love me anymore......so we finished.....but wen we were broke up i was with another fella who was goin trough the same as me and we were both upset and found comfort in eachother!!! ok the fella did happen to be lee's very gud mate....then all of a sudden lee wanted to gt bk wit me!!! i was over the moon....... told him about me and his mate and he said it was grand...then 2 weeks later he broke up with me he would not talk to me.......r=then bout 2 weks ago he said he had forgotten about it...so we kinda started talkin a tiny bit not mates jst civil!!......but today we wud have bein together 2 years if i had not of messed up things so much!!!!! >:(im so mad at myself for wat i did and will neva forgive myself.......i hate myself for it....nd always will....i still love lee...and today is so hard...how can you let go of the past!!!!! how can you frget the person you loved more than life itself...im not lookin for sympothy.......just a way to let go.....mayb this is my punishment for doin it mayb my karma is doin this to me........not lettin le let go........because of wat i did....puttin me trought the pain of it everyday!!!!!!! help........we cud have bin together 2 years today!!!!xxxx:no::'(